My blogging absence can only be explained by the simple fact that I have been engaging in my life more wholeheartedly. I’ve come to realize that my time at home is limited and quickly coming to an end. I’ve been taking the time to notice and appreciate the small things – like this delicious cappuccino that has become a regular part of my morning, or the beautiful, emphatic smiles I receive from baby El when she sees me for the first time in the morning, or even just reading a book or working on my puzzle.
My last blog post was about how my life felt like it was falling apart; how I felt that I lacked clarity and understanding about what I was doing and direction I was taking in life. Circumstances haven’t changed, but I feel that my efforts to slow down, live in the moment, and experience life wholeheartedly have made me step back and accept life for what it is. My career is demanding and unyielding at the moment; but I can do it. My kids are a handful and they pose some difficult challenges; but they love me unconditionally and loving them back is the best gift I can give them.
If anything, I have realized the need to temper my expectations. I need to slow down and accept my life and the situations I am presented with as they are. So far this has been working. Hopefully it will continue to work well as live moves forward