I’m Not Always Okay, And I’m Okay With That

“I’m not okay, you’re not okay, and that’s okay.”

~Elizabeth Kübler-Ross

Reflecting on last year’s post thta accompanied this quotation, I realized that it still completely stands true: In our world, we have to get better with being “okay to not be okay.”  I struggled with the a lot recently, especially as I went through many internal difficulties but had no choice but to push through on the outside and act like everything was just fine.  In the past 12 months, I’ve lost an important friendship, come to terms with the idea that people aren’t always who or what we think they are, I had to say goodbye to my longtime and cherished blog, I decided to have a baby, and then I’ve made it through a horrible ill first-trimester.  Not all of that was okay… and that’s okay.  It really is.
(I’ve also realized that in the last little while I have drifted away from Brenè Brown and I need to get back into her books and philosophy)

From The Old Blog, November 3, 2014:

Do you ever notice how everyone is always “okay?”  I find it a little sickening, and irritating, and unhealthy that no one ever admits to being not okay.  Sometimes you can tell that people are struggling or having difficulty with something; yet when you ask them about it, they insist that they are okay.

Why do we do this to ourselves?  Why do we do this to other people?  I feel that by pretending that we are always coping well with our lives and not facing any challenges, we are perpetuating the idea that it is abnormal to struggle with life’s challenges.  We all struggle with life sometimes.  Some people have more struggles and some people have less.  Regardless, when we constantly feel that the people around us are coping well all the time, it only makes us feel bad about ourselves for not coping well.  And you know what’s worse?  When we feel like we are the only people struggling, we become isolated and we don’t reach out for help.  Similarly, when we know people are struggling and they don’t reach out to us for help (even when we offer), we feel isolated from them in just the same way.

I tried working on this for a while – while I was reading Brené Brown’s books on Shame and Vulnerability.  As Dr. Brown alludes to in her books, we don’t admit to being “not okay” because it feels shameful and we are afraid of being vulnerable.  I tried overcoming my own shame and allowing myself to be vulnerable.  However, there is an overwhelming majority of people who are not ready for this.  We have all been hiding our shame and vulnerability for such a long time that when someone reveals it, we are unsure of how to deal with it – so we push it away like we do with everything else that makes us uncomfortable.  Brené Brown is ahead of her time – and trying out her advice can sometimes make life a little more isolating.

You have to pick the right people  with which to be vulnerable.  There aren’t many people I will open up to and admit that I’m not okay.  Unfortunately, I don’t have any of them here with me now.  I need to go back and revisit the world of Shame and Vulnerability, I think.  In the meantime, I just hope that more people will read Brené Brown’s books and realize that there is a whole world of human connection that is waiting for us if we would all just admit that sometimes we are “not okay.”

6 thoughts on “I’m Not Always Okay, And I’m Okay With That

  1. Good morning, Aggie ! =)

    I cannot tell you how timely and valuable this post of yours is. I often find myself looking into the face of a colleague who is most assuredly NOT ok, yet they insist they are. I too silently scream in frustration ! WHY do we live in a society that values the appearance of normalcy rather than one that accepts that we are often in need of support ?

    This reminds me of becoming a mother, and because every woman I talked to said THEY had been ok, I thought something was wrong with me and simply tried harder. With a newborn, a job, a fledgling marriage, 12 sutures in my mangled girly-bits, a three day migraine and failed attempts to breastfeed… ALL I needed was a good cry and to be told “we’ve all been there”, and instead I got silence.

    It is terribly appropriate, normal and healthy to be far from ok at times, and I make an effort every day not only to recognize my own frailty but to allows others to see it as well, in the hopes that we can create a tribe where we all feel supported.

    Sorry for the blathering… as you can tell, I feel strongly about this issue. Thanks again, friend ! =)

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  2. LOL, so many times I’ve answered “I’m struggling but will pull through!” I, too, have had the loss of a friend, someone I totally considered to be one of my best ones, and the hurt was a hard one to let go of, but I can look and see how far I’ve come (reflection, anyone???) 🙂

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